This is week 5 of the Trauma Message series.
I want to give you guys a very short devotional this week and I’ll go more into this feelings topic next week. But I want to talk about the anticipation of the feelings, how they are like a storm and how God stills that storm.
So let me just get started. As you can see, this isn’t my normal background. We’re up north. Mike and I came up with Ellie this past weekend. She and I stayed because we found out the other week that my mother in law has stomach cancer. So we thought we’d stay up here and bring her a little joy. Thankfully she’s in good spirits. She meets with the oncologist Friday so that’s when we’ll no more about the degree of it. But if you could keep her in your prayers, and our family – that would be great. Her name is Harriet.
So we’re here kind of in this holding pattern, being present in the moment, almost the calm before the storm. Whatever the outcome we all know we’re going to have emotions.
I felt mine a little early, like Saturday. Wasn’t expecting it but I often forget this is the time of year that I came up north to write my book and grieve my Dad after he died. It’s where I came to feel and heal so I can get kinda emotional here around this time, and Harriet’s situation on top of it didn’t help. Not to mention! We have a toddler.
And I know I only have one, but we all know toddlers can wear you out. I had reached that point late in the morning on Saturday and had to just go in the other room and let my mother and sister in law take care of her.
My husband was in there and I just started venting. Then the tears came. (Obviously I had to get these emotions out, like I was scratching an itch or something). They needed to be processed. Walking out of that room to feel was exactly what I needed to do. I also needed to write it out and get it out by walking outside and watching the sunset.
Sunsets up here are where I just get still and get present to God’s presence. The time, the winds were whipping and the waves were crashing hard. It was LOUD. I thought, “Okay God what are you trying to teach me tonight.”
I did some research and was taken back to Psalm 107 (which we’ve consequently referred to a few times in this trauma series) titled, “The Lord Rescues Many People from Many Troubles.” Verses 23-27 say,
“Some went out on the sea in ships;
they were merchants on the mighty waters.
They saw the works of the Lord,
his wonderful deeds in the deep.
“For he spoke and stirred up a tempest that lifted high the waves.
They mounted up to the heavens and went down into the depths;
in their peril, their courage melted away.
They reeled and staggered like drunkards;
they were at their wits end.
Have you ever been at your wits end? Are you there right now, like I was Saturday morning? Think about these sailors. You know anyone on the seas has first-hand knowledge of the power of God over the seas.
But God shows up in verses 28-30,
“Then they cried out to the Lord in their trouble,
and he brought them out of their distress.
He stilled the storm to a whisper;
the waves of the sea were hushed.
They were glad when it grew calm and he guided them to their desired haven.”
That’s a promise. If we cry out and trust him, he will guide us through the storm. He will still the storm. Just like he did it in the gospels. If you go to Luke 8, you know Jesus calms the storm with the disciples. The storm comes and he falls asleep. They wake him up and say in verse 24, “Master, Master, we’re going to drown!” He got up and rebuked the wind and the raging waters; the storm subsided, and all was calm. In verse 25, Jesus says, “Where is your faith?” In fear and amazement they asked one another, “Who is this? He commands even the winds and the water, and they obey him.”
Even the winds and the water obey him. If he can do that, he can calm the storm in us. The other night he reminded me of this when the stormy skies moved over the lake and the skies were clear just after sunset. Proof, that the storms DO pass.
We have to trust that he is PRESENT, in the storm. He knows what’s going on, and he will bring us THROUGH.
In our house, we know the storm is coming Friday. So we brace for impact and trust the one who calms the seas.
We don’t tell God how big the storm is. He already knows. We tell the storm how big our God is.
So let me pray.